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The maskEveryone sees the smile,
Everyone hears the laughter
But just wait a little while,
Just wait till after
When the mask comes off,
And the tears flow freely
When i think of the day and scoff,
At the number of people who know me really.
WhyI threw, i growled
I screamed at the heavens
And through my tear filled howl
I could not understand why
Why am I alone for
Why can't i be happy
What must i atone for
To end this tragedy
My heart cries and aches
But i still give
Trying to catch a brake
And find the one that will help me
forget and forgive
pills make me feel weirdWhy does it seem
As if this dream
Is nothing more of a nightmare
Trying to rip and tear
The only thing that I use to cope
Which is my endless hope
Hope of a better life
Hope of a beautiful wife
Hope that ill leave this world
With a blazing trail
For all to see
In hopes that my name
May hang one day in a frame
That at least my loved ones
Will miss me once im gone
religionFor starters, I don't believe in god. At least, not the catholic interpretation of god. Though I can acknowledge that perhaps there might be something higher, but only perhaps. I am a skeptic, but not only that. I also just love to challenge the world, even if something is correct. I like to think different. To think about the different possibilities and to try and figure out what others could not. My love for the "gods" so to speak comes mostly from every other god that's not the christian god, or any god that is a derivative of Christianity. My favorite gods would be the greek and roman gods. Jupiter and Zues. Hermes and Mercury. Aphrodite and Venus. They are gods, though they themselves are not all powerful. They are not detached from feelings and often indulge themselves in very "human" actions. So you wouldn't be wrong in saying that the greek and roman gods would be better categorized as humans with extraordinary abilities, and not so much as gods, seeing as the aren't
my world with headphonesgot the juice today
my creative flow for the day
got my mind un-wound
with an ear full of sound
the bass rattling my mind
headphones blocking out the world as i un-wind
grinning to myself like a moron
as i tell my head to hold on
raising the volume all the way up
closing my eyes as the bass erupts
my hands on my lap
fingers starting to tap
and foot thumping
nothing to bother me
as the world passes by and leaves me be
JudgeWho are you to judge my life? My soul does not lie in your hands waiting to be twisted and corrupted by your desires. No judge can decide my fate without my consent, without my word. For when it comes to my body, MY word is law, and no one elses. How dare you question my sanity. How dare you question my motives. Have i killed some one? Is there blood on my hands? Or perhaps i am a thief and should have these bloody hands cut off. Even when you sentence me, it shall only be because I want it. If i where to kill some one then i have chosen my OWN fate. If i have robbed you of your spoils then that is MY doing. No fancy doctorate or shiny mallet can give you the power of my fate. Not even god could bend my will. The master of my fate, of my life and my freedom, is me and i defy any one who says other wise.
My sinsMy sins are countless,
My soul morally empty
My greed bottomless
My sloth cozy
My lust is too much
My pride to grand
My wrath cant be crushed
My gluttony is anything but bland
My envy... Only rivaled by my lust
All and all... I am not one to trust
Death 2Death is a reward
Meaning that a sword
Is the angel of liberation
While the sun is the torture of continuation
With every new day
u can only waste away
Meaning that existence
Is nothing but a nuisance
And should be treated as such.
Humanity should be flushed,
Thrown down the drain
And let the higher ones start again
For obviously they failed
My temptressMy temptress
The one who holds my heart
The one that keeps me from falling apart
Though u say i am the master
I say u are the one with the power
For u id lay down my life
With u i can take it all in strides
Without u there is no meaning
For me to keep breathing
And though i know ud never leave me
The distance wont let us be.
Why I Always take a JacketWhen I was younger my mom always said to me:
"Take a jacket when you leave the house.
You never know when it's going to be cold."
I listened to her request and took a jacket
Because I wanted to be warm at nighttime.
When a few years passed I realized something;
Sometimes a couple would walk past me
But it was obvious that one person wore a jacket
That belonged to the other person.
I thought it was weird but shrugged it off moments later.
During my adolescent years I got a little jealous.
I found out that giving a person a jacket meant something.
It meant that you cared for said person
And you wanted them to be warm.
This got me wondering: Did other people care for me?
Questions like that made me evaluate myself.
My mom bought me the jackets I wear so that I stay warm,
So that meant she loves me.
After calming myself with this fact,
I snuggle into my own jacket and carry on with my life.
It's cold. Shivers run through me repeatedly.
I forgot my jacket.
Everyone else is laughing and havi
I hear it all
What you screech
Every line repeats
Until I fall in my defeat
Can I ever stop
The barrage of words
That crumples me down
Onto the floor?
What gives you the right
To drag my face through dirt?
Why, oh why do I listen to you,
Who brings so much hurt?
Your words bring tears,
Heat rising to my face.
I run out in humiliation,
Sobs coming as I race.
My heart is bleeding
My ears are ringing
My chest is pounding
My sorrow astounding
I can't take it
Enough is enough
The smile is cracked
The mask now gone
I'm finally beaten
Is that what you want?
I'm just a human
I'll never live up
Never reach what yo
Are running out
Like the future
That my heart
My black eyes
Her gorgeous march.
Breaking my hopes
Was our last
She ran away
My life turned grey
Living a plastic life
It’s easy to watch
An entire society
Like bricks in a wall.
Let me stay
Here with you.
I don’t belong
There to them
It was a mistake
Believe that I
My tears spillMy missing you,
my wanting you,
my needing you still,
my tears spill.
it´s all been said before,
you´d just walk in the door.
My love for you,
my dreams of you
oh if it could only be,
then I´d turn back the hands of time
and you´d still be here with me.
By Suzanne Karbach 19th July 2014
Wedding VowToday, my love, I lay my hand in thine
And vow to spend forever at thy side
The path that lies ahead of thee now mine
My strength to bear thy cares and match thy stride
Today, my love, I wear thy wedding ring
I pledge devotion, heart and soul, to thee
I share what joys and sorrows time will bring
And cherish thee for all eternity
Today, my love, I pledge myself thy wife
And take thee as the husband of my heart
I gift thee all the moments of my life
That nothing in this world tear us apart
Secrets and PromisesI am here because of the past,
Because of a promise that is endeavored to be kept.
I can only hope that this dread won't last.
Since the past is also what's killing me the most.
But no one knows,
What goes on in my head.
The painful woes,
That have not yet gone away.
Secrets that can not be shared,
Buried deep, and very far.
Only if anyone cared,
But God knows no one ever will.
Hiding the truth may never feel right,
But I am only doing it for the best.
I am not going to win this fight,
For what is left of me, I'm broken.
Widows FearsIn a graveyard a widow stands
Remembering her lover who lays below
Under the stars
Weeping like a willow
The sky starts crying
In sync with her tears
This is why she had quit trying
Why she’d fallen into her fears
Keep your head up.The weight of the world is sitting on your shoulders,
crushing you down,
and making you smaller.
The more you struggle,
the heavier it gets.
My advice is:
Keep your head up.
When it pushes,
And when the world gets the message,
you will fly.
And when you fly,
you will finally understand what it means to be alive.
And that is,
to keep your head up,
and look at the challenge without flinching,
and once you rein dominance,
you hand it over to another that is giving up.
No one deserves what you previously felt.
A Song for the StarsUnder the night sky, here I stand
To seek for beauty, peace and love
I once have known in human's land
But I now see in stars above.
Beneath the heavens, I look up
To see the wonder of the stars,
Wishing the night would never stop,
That I could always gaze at Mars.
After midnight, I'm still awake,
Thinking of stars and something else -
You whom I love, for goodness' sake,
And my love - none but stars can tell.
The constellations - they remind
Me of your eyes that I hold dear
In my memories, in my mind
(All while I look at stars so clear).
In the midst of dawn, I still stand
To feel your presence once again,
Like when you roamed the human's land
When life was great and free of pain.
Early morning, I now look down
To think of you and other stars;
Although I may not see them now,
They're still there, like you always are.
^^My love for her
Large like the sun
Goes on forever
And cant be undone
Her sweet tone
And loving smile
Makes me feel like im not alone
And makes my life worth while
She never leaves my thoughts
Every minute of every day
I know what her heart plots
When she tells me to stay
I miss her so much
It hurts to think
Torture like such
Makes me feel on the brink
The one i cant wait to see
I want her here now
Because i know its meant to be
But i dont know how
Miamor te amo
Y no puedo vivir sin ti
Por favor ven a mi lado
Para yo estar feliz
[transmissions of a dead girl]i am the
moon: i am
the silver pill
to weigh down
into leaden eyes--
i am the
of the dark.
the stars are
all dead in their
you'll be safe, dear,
as i am the moon,
with all of your
(i am good bye and yet,
you think only of romantic
i am the moon.
i am the crescent
and dead altogether,
i still die.
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